What a FAILURE

It strikes every pieces of me when i saw i hold the 28th position on this first exam. How can I be holding that when I know I do not deserve that position. I so going to work really hard to make sure I am back to top 10th. It really hurt my dignity. I almost cried when I saw it. Of 9 subjects n my percentage is only 54.7, how can I score high for SPM if I don't get at least 70 for percentage. And guess what, SPM is around the corner and I feel like I'm SUPER-NOT-READY for it. *sigh*

Whole week thing

Basically its not normal because teachers start to teach us again after the exam week. and one not normal thing is that, i start to actually sit and study for at least two very hours. But i don't really study. I just recopy the notes i wrote before as revision anyway. I fail my history subject in the very first exam of the year. That does tell me i need to study very very hard to make sure i achieve my goal at the end. I'm sitting for this huge exam which will determine my future. As for chemistry subject, half of the class fail that subject and now the teacher teach us. I mean, before he just ask us to read from the book but now he actually teaches us until we truly understand. Other than that, i did not enter class on Wednesday but instead i was in the school kitchen to cook spaghetti for the homemakers project. On the very same day in the afternoon we had work party to clean up the whole school because the new York Block will be launch a week after that. On the same day again at night, i have physic tuition n i was totally exhausted. Good thing the teacher told us to do revision. On Thursday, nothing so special exactly. On Friday, I read a book finish on the day i started reading it. That book was amazing. So basically that is my week. Cheers.