What a FAILURE

It strikes every pieces of me when i saw i hold the 28th position on this first exam. How can I be holding that when I know I do not deserve that position. I so going to work really hard to make sure I am back to top 10th. It really hurt my dignity. I almost cried when I saw it. Of 9 subjects n my percentage is only 54.7, how can I score high for SPM if I don't get at least 70 for percentage. And guess what, SPM is around the corner and I feel like I'm SUPER-NOT-READY for it. *sigh*