LMC- Labuan Matriculation College

Dear superb friend, 

Life here isn't as bad as i imagine the first week classes starts. My classmates are pretty cool people thou. they do help when help is needed but quite lame in term of male and female getting along. I failed my first Math quiz and vowed not to do it anymore and I then passed my Bio but not in 3.00 yet. I wanna at least get in that range. I come here with a hope to change what lacking I had done in Form 5. So far working with the people in my class is kinda irritating because some are just too good but most are just I-dont-care type. But that happens everywhere so its not to be questioned then :/ I had big issues of shopping which makes me feel like a housewife... LOL ok I think I'm done here since tomorrow we have Chemistry Quiz D:

Male and I

I guess history main to be repeated if I am to talk about guys and I. Sometimes it makes me wonder, why i do not have a special guy?... I used to think it was because the guy i had first crush on obsession makes me close my heart. but now i'm thinking that maybe I have a problem myself. I like him but my principle seems to be on the way. It just happen that I fall for my best friend's exbf...I dont want somebody's waste  :( but yea~ :( now that I'm falling for him, maybe because of his sweet words, but I hope its not that... but now he seems to fall for another girl. and so repeating history back in National Service, I went through the same thing. in the end, he falls literally with another girl...how unfaithful guys could be. this is the secure part, I know that they weren't true :) but at the same time it does break my heart. but of course temporary. Not lasting unless they are already mine :p

Everything is gone..

Its when you are to close with someone and when that person leaving, its when you feel you have nothing at all. To be exact, I feel hurt at the same time I am sad. I don't know why but getting this out in here is a way of expressing for me from now. My best friend gone to Labuan for further study and another friend of mine is lost from my life. That person is now meaning less. I do not want to feel that way about that person but I just can get it off. If I dare to care over this, I would. But I don't. I feel so stereotypical. Plus with my bizarre feel towards a stranger whom I never know. My life is scary and emo. Gahh im hating it...

Everybody deserve compliment...

I know this one girl who once always smile to whoever she pass by. She is awesome. But her self-esteem is low. With that, of course anything that has to do with her is very sensitive.
Now, thanks to this another girl who is very popular in school and the I-think-i-am-perfect-the-way-i-am girl, the girl who i think awesome can hardly smile to anyone..
It all started when photo taking session for yearly magazine. The awesome girl happen to be sitting next to the popular girl n block her for the candid picture. Btw, awesome girl is large size. So the popular girl who is also a hot tempered girl got angry because the candid picture spoil. She make it such a big deal by cursing the awesome girl and humiliate her in front of juniors and other people. Since then, awesome girl other picture for the magazine, she did not pose nor do she smile. Its a bad memory as we are leaving school very soon and she does not have confidence to make her Senior high School a perfect year...
Looking at her without the smile that enlighten every part of her really is not a good thing. Plus she tries to diet to make sure she fits in but she end up stuffing more food into to release stress... I cannot imagine more what she will be doing one day...

My month, I RULE!

OMG!! having the chance to talk to some celebrity just A DAY BEFORE YOUR BIRTHDAY is like SUPER AWESOME!!! uhh i regret logging out early now i don't get to chat with him any longer...:'( but he told me his schedule for his new day!! he doing photo shooting and meeting with his producer for new film!! I'm in love!! although my birthday is nothing special but he made it awesome...  

What a FAILURE

It strikes every pieces of me when i saw i hold the 28th position on this first exam. How can I be holding that when I know I do not deserve that position. I so going to work really hard to make sure I am back to top 10th. It really hurt my dignity. I almost cried when I saw it. Of 9 subjects n my percentage is only 54.7, how can I score high for SPM if I don't get at least 70 for percentage. And guess what, SPM is around the corner and I feel like I'm SUPER-NOT-READY for it. *sigh*

Whole week thing

Basically its not normal because teachers start to teach us again after the exam week. and one not normal thing is that, i start to actually sit and study for at least two very hours. But i don't really study. I just recopy the notes i wrote before as revision anyway. I fail my history subject in the very first exam of the year. That does tell me i need to study very very hard to make sure i achieve my goal at the end. I'm sitting for this huge exam which will determine my future. As for chemistry subject, half of the class fail that subject and now the teacher teach us. I mean, before he just ask us to read from the book but now he actually teaches us until we truly understand. Other than that, i did not enter class on Wednesday but instead i was in the school kitchen to cook spaghetti for the homemakers project. On the very same day in the afternoon we had work party to clean up the whole school because the new York Block will be launch a week after that. On the same day again at night, i have physic tuition n i was totally exhausted. Good thing the teacher told us to do revision. On Thursday, nothing so special exactly. On Friday, I read a book finish on the day i started reading it. That book was amazing. So basically that is my week. Cheers.