Male and I

I guess history main to be repeated if I am to talk about guys and I. Sometimes it makes me wonder, why i do not have a special guy?... I used to think it was because the guy i had first crush on obsession makes me close my heart. but now i'm thinking that maybe I have a problem myself. I like him but my principle seems to be on the way. It just happen that I fall for my best friend's exbf...I dont want somebody's waste  :( but yea~ :( now that I'm falling for him, maybe because of his sweet words, but I hope its not that... but now he seems to fall for another girl. and so repeating history back in National Service, I went through the same thing. in the end, he falls literally with another girl...how unfaithful guys could be. this is the secure part, I know that they weren't true :) but at the same time it does break my heart. but of course temporary. Not lasting unless they are already mine :p