Everything is gone..

Its when you are to close with someone and when that person leaving, its when you feel you have nothing at all. To be exact, I feel hurt at the same time I am sad. I don't know why but getting this out in here is a way of expressing for me from now. My best friend gone to Labuan for further study and another friend of mine is lost from my life. That person is now meaning less. I do not want to feel that way about that person but I just can get it off. If I dare to care over this, I would. But I don't. I feel so stereotypical. Plus with my bizarre feel towards a stranger whom I never know. My life is scary and emo. Gahh im hating it...

Everybody deserve compliment...

I know this one girl who once always smile to whoever she pass by. She is awesome. But her self-esteem is low. With that, of course anything that has to do with her is very sensitive.
Now, thanks to this another girl who is very popular in school and the I-think-i-am-perfect-the-way-i-am girl, the girl who i think awesome can hardly smile to anyone..
It all started when photo taking session for yearly magazine. The awesome girl happen to be sitting next to the popular girl n block her for the candid picture. Btw, awesome girl is large size. So the popular girl who is also a hot tempered girl got angry because the candid picture spoil. She make it such a big deal by cursing the awesome girl and humiliate her in front of juniors and other people. Since then, awesome girl other picture for the magazine, she did not pose nor do she smile. Its a bad memory as we are leaving school very soon and she does not have confidence to make her Senior high School a perfect year...
Looking at her without the smile that enlighten every part of her really is not a good thing. Plus she tries to diet to make sure she fits in but she end up stuffing more food into to release stress... I cannot imagine more what she will be doing one day...

My month, I RULE!

OMG!! having the chance to talk to some celebrity just A DAY BEFORE YOUR BIRTHDAY is like SUPER AWESOME!!! uhh i regret logging out early now i don't get to chat with him any longer...:'( but he told me his schedule for his new day!! he doing photo shooting and meeting with his producer for new film!! I'm in love!! although my birthday is nothing special but he made it awesome...  

What a FAILURE

It strikes every pieces of me when i saw i hold the 28th position on this first exam. How can I be holding that when I know I do not deserve that position. I so going to work really hard to make sure I am back to top 10th. It really hurt my dignity. I almost cried when I saw it. Of 9 subjects n my percentage is only 54.7, how can I score high for SPM if I don't get at least 70 for percentage. And guess what, SPM is around the corner and I feel like I'm SUPER-NOT-READY for it. *sigh*

Whole week thing

Basically its not normal because teachers start to teach us again after the exam week. and one not normal thing is that, i start to actually sit and study for at least two very hours. But i don't really study. I just recopy the notes i wrote before as revision anyway. I fail my history subject in the very first exam of the year. That does tell me i need to study very very hard to make sure i achieve my goal at the end. I'm sitting for this huge exam which will determine my future. As for chemistry subject, half of the class fail that subject and now the teacher teach us. I mean, before he just ask us to read from the book but now he actually teaches us until we truly understand. Other than that, i did not enter class on Wednesday but instead i was in the school kitchen to cook spaghetti for the homemakers project. On the very same day in the afternoon we had work party to clean up the whole school because the new York Block will be launch a week after that. On the same day again at night, i have physic tuition n i was totally exhausted. Good thing the teacher told us to do revision. On Thursday, nothing so special exactly. On Friday, I read a book finish on the day i started reading it. That book was amazing. So basically that is my week. Cheers.

First One Session Experience

We had our one session school from today onwards. It was really funny when recess came by. Everyone rushes out of class and teachers have to chase after the form 3,4 and 5 into their classes. They were only letting the Junior High out for recess at 9:50am and The High School at 10:30am. After that we had our assembly and the auditorium was really crowded of students. Its really amazing to see the Marians are gathering together for an ordinary assembly for the very first time. We usually have our assembly together when its our school anniversary and teachers day. I hope the student willing to cooperate with the teachers new duty and the whole new transformation for the entire school committee :) Fighting!

Disney Princess-16 going on 17

School changing to Only One Session

Its been a long time since i was in freshmen year, my school Saint Mary's Secondary, Kuching have two session because we does not have enough classes to fit in all the students. Now starting from tomorrow onward my school having only one session. I wonder how am I going through this senior year with waking up so early to prevent the traffic jam. I do not know this is for good or for bad. I heard its actually my school principal dream when she was a student in the school. I think this is a dream come true for her. We having our lesson from 7:10am to 1.30pm. I have no idea how many times i will come late to school after the Mid-Term holiday especially when its raining. I came late mostly when rain continuously from night before. I guess its going to be a total new beginning for the entire school students and teachers.

Chinese New Year 2011

The first day wasn't bad at all compared to last year. We receive a lot of red packet compared to last year. We went visiting from 9am to 6pm and it was super tiring. Not counting the amount of carbonated drinks drunk by us. But for me the second day was a total disaster. Thanks to the chicken i ate i got diarrhea. It really way hurt than having gastric. That house been serving us weird food since forever. Last year they serve us with expired food. This year its not cooked. I wonder what it will be next year. Not forgetting a house where a used-to-be teacher live. I met my long lost cousin but also absorbing word of encouragement from him. Its the third day now and the effect of the uncooked chicken is really killing me man. I have no idea how to get rid of this feel. it hurts a lot, feel like crying of the pooing. I don't get to visit my friend this year.

Its February!

Time gone so fast. Today is my best friend Flora 18th birthday. i haven't wish. I'm planing to wish he tonight. I'll be the last one to wish her.hahaha mean me. Guess what, Chinese New Year coming so soon too. but i haven't decide on what to wear yet. oh no.. since its the new month, i have a new things i got to achieve. that is I'll try to stop facebook-ing too much. i feel like i have no life other than online on facebook. its like so critical already. i bet if the laptop can punch me for using it too much, i'll be in ICU because of its smackdown. I just hope things workout well in the new month. last month things really doesn't work out as planned. So frustrating...

I admit it...

okay i guess having only one person as best friend is not right...it feels like your not giving chances for other to get to know yourself any better.. I have a friend who i count as best friend who i am not sure is it still or not. I have another friend who is a guy and is a best friend too. I guess best friend is not meant to be only one. its about getting to know a lot about your friend. :)